Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

sorry

hen yang hen yang hen yang i cannot tahan le cannot go out lar sian... so i tried to set up limewire and as per usual cannot lar... my 2pid new modem got an internal firewall which ishhhhhh so 2pid configure liao still cannot portforward properly lah! tmd i wanna dl rihanna's new album oso cannot lj... ok must cool down or gg to fa zhuo again. all that's left to accompany me thru the weekends is you

although i didn't manage to catch the NDP, but it's a really really really HAPPY national day for me!!!

national day celebration is a super slack day teehee. class outing today lar so shiok after chalet like nothing happen le, as a class. budden later ricky pangseh us... then many people couldn't make it like kiat who had CHEM H1 time for us to laugh at u every monday niao us lar nb. others just couldn't be found but in the end we decided to go KBOX. so went to cine lar cuz marina is like must walk quite a bit. wanted to go kbox lar so went to the top floor one rooms bigger haha budden the 2pid lady wanted to scam us 22 dollars for 2.30 to like 5.30 cuz she did not promise us to 7. so then we asked for the student price which was like 12 dollars for 1.30-2 hours which was so SCAM. so didn't sing. wanted to watch click as such budden 2.40 full and 3.50 left 1st row THX a lot lar. next is 5pm OKIE~... so went to play pool lor. the kpool got this machine that dispenses soft toys lar so gway rong apparently damn pro at such machine lar showed off his skill lar.



tadaa we almost swoop all the plushies in the machine lar. it's like 80% succeed lar so ghey haha... pool damn ghey lar the white ball kept flying out of the table so malu. Didnt noe our cls so many pro pool players lar siao one.

Xia la today ALL the lessons were damn boring. I mean when were lessons fun? double power of geog, ok lar always release early and geog is slack :D. budden after that dosage of boring lessons like chem lec...... then undisputed boredom-frenzy GP when she taught like 30min of euthanasia again and slack till bell ring 1 hour later... and holy chem was like tutorial instead of laboratory so it was soooo stuffy and sleepy cuz tutorial at like 3pm for 2 hours is never going to work so rudy lee had no choice but to release us early cuz everybody were like in dreamland liao. FD3 was crazily gorily gross. SICK.

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Words of Affirmation:		7
Physical Touch:		5
Acts of Service:		4
Receiving Gifts:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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"... behave like primary school kids"

"... thank you very much :D"

"... the flutes are surprisingly in tune today"

Memorable day~

Sometimes life is just downright unfair. Always after finish watching Desperate Housewives after all the laughter and sadness and tears, you just realize you have been living what one of those “housewives” lives before. It’s damn pissing how people change, no not people change, everything, everything’s changing. Sometimes I don’t know if I am the one who can’t keep up with the pace and am lagging behind or I’m just too fast. I guess my feeling’s like the Four Seasons now, I just don’t know what I’m feeling. Just one day blow 4 years into dust. I don’t know if it’s the stress from school or whatsoever, or maybe cos I’m weak, I know I am, I really don’t have time why can’t you just understand. I hate hypocrites. They just destroy everything in front of your blardy eye, ok not directly in front but blatant backstabbing. F! this shit man the more I think the more pissed I get. Sometimes I really try to be really kind and put things out in a clear manner but people just don’t get it. It’s like WTHeck I tell you off I DON”T like this guy and then still… Nevermind this aside. Hypocrites sucks. If you want to live like that then why make friends and play with the relationship. I believe in every type of friendship, no matter what type it is, it is ultimately built upon trust. That is why you share personal information and stuff and you are willing to sacrifice your time to be with him/her at times and such but NONONO you screw it all up. OK maybe I AM a bad at judging personalities. I don’t want to sacrifice 4 years for 1 month!

damn pissed today. i hate you

i hate this guy from high school lar. If you read my blog then too bad for u lar. I don't freakin' care. so i was telling jessalynn that if he joins, i'll quit band. (high sch band ppl will know better) then the kind-hearted clarinet girls said sherman you cannot quit cannot quit we'll miss u (and so will i :D)!!! must promise us must stay no matter wad. haha so i agreed lor cuz jess said i could sit at the other end while that guy sat at the other end. and the clarinets will "adopt" me haha now the saxas oso wanna adopt me cuz J and J *tsktsk haha so im the only one left in the section. so anyways today sectionals then wtheck i opened the door and see him inside i damn pissed lar cuz J and J obviously sat tgt so jess was hinting for me to sit with that guy. WTFHWTFWJWTJTFWTJTFWJTFW i was damn pissed lar i and i attituded a lot sry lar budden i really hated sitting there! so in the end i sat on the other bench i couldn't see the score and i don't freakin' gif a blardly damn. luckily trg ended damn fast like 30min.

i had individuals. KK then walked by and said haha why u practising alone. then i was like umm they are inside lol i don't wanna disturb them haha then he 'orh...'. ok wadeva i nv go lunch liao let them go budden he nv cherish the opportunity too bad :( haha. Mr chua was practising the trumpet then he was like ask who i am lar then he went on talking about harmonics producing sounds on the flute and wad frequency and wavelength to change the notes ... OKIE~~~ haha. i don't despise him lar it's not sarcastic cuz his son and daughter are soooooo cute :XD haha. but his cute son dao'ed me lar that day ( ok he dao'ed everybody ) so rude hor. han ya his daughter damn cute when speaking chinese lar so soft and polite :D

after that more funny. played soccer. flutes (which is me and lardyyyy nia) vs clarinets ( which is teng en and his maid agency haha yumin aka aminah jacklyn aka fatimah and ying chern aka maria and steve the bai ka ) lol. damn funny lar teng en's maids touch the ball abit ouch here ouch there... like paper lor. then teng en wanted to ram the ball into our goal lar then hit yumin DAMN hard. OUCH. then jacklyn oso kena hit hard!!! ying chern also got hit on the head cuz she header haha. DAMN funny lar it's like every kick is a penalty ......... then we don't dare tackle the maids too later they shout molest haha. no la budden always step on their leg and they abit oso scream so loud... haha.

Damn cool lar. The Taiwan immersion program guys can keep long hair lor it's so noooo fair. And they carry handbags like me too!!!! bwahahah :D and it's their school bag which is damn nice haha.

Played soccer during PE lesson haha. Our PE teacher don't really care what we do also, she just took attendance and disappeared haha. I was goalie for a while then played as defender. Kena rammed in the face argh pain! :( must be more careful next time haha.

Dreadful long wait to band. Lessons always end soooo early and hafta wait damn long b4 the CCA starts. budden band damn fun other than the tuning part which never fails to bore people so badly so many ppl were sleeping considering our band is already damn small like 20+ people nia and sooo many ppl never go lor like aminah nad jacklyn. Then hor when cbdccd left for Chem O, he said bye to the band then bye dear looking at ying chern i was like :| ok the whole band was :| eww gross ying chern gave a disgusted shrug haha. And mr leng gave her a meek smile lol. Damn farny. Band damn cold today esp. when playing phantom of the opera which was a tremendous killer for flutes with so many extreme high notes + running notes + double tongue. SIAO ONE LAR it is a grade 6 piece and mr leng conducted at full speed. Saw her after cca again teehee.

"To you i'm sorry" haha.